An interesting thing happened to me today. Well, first lets backtrack. I woke up Monday morning and looked at my to do list and started to get that butterflies fluttering in my chest, anxiety provoking feeling of never being able to get it all done. I had a crazy day at work, had to talk to one of the higher ups at the college about a problematic student and then headed off to teach my barre classes (yes plural). I was driving home and thinking how par for the course that crazy day way.
That was just my Monday.
So today, I’m sitting in my office. There is no afternoon patients, my grading is caught up and I know what I am going to teach for class tonight. For once, I am caught up. Of course there is always the planner/OCD person in me that thinks about the long term things that need to be done but I had a moment to reflect about the journey of this blog and how blogging has changed over the years. If you remember from this post, I used to be a closet blog reader. I was drawn to the bloggers who would write about their lives. I definitely gravitated towards lifestyle bloggers because you can only look at so many Chanel bag high end fashion posts without going, yeah right in another life and then moving on.
I liked reading about the local restaurants they would try, or just a life catch up kind of post. Back then I didn’t realize or even think about the behind the scenes thoughts of making sure your traffic is staying steady or continually growing. Or the fact that a post without a “pinnable” image is basically a major blogging no no. It was just a nice 5 minute break from my office job to check up on my favorite bloggers. You start to feel a connection to them and want to see what is going on with their lives.
That is the crazy thing about blogging. You put your lives out there, either just a little bit or some people choose to lay it all out there and then wait for people to either connect with what you have to say or if they move along to the next person. Let’s be honest, there are a lot of blogs out there right now.
I read an article the other day with a total call to action title “IS BLOGGING DEAD???” I have definitely seen even in the short amount of time (2 years this November) a huge change in the approach. Everyone needs to be the expert of their field, find your niche, how you can make money without a product etc etc. Nobody wants to read blogs anymore, Instagram is where it’s at. Just kidding, now snapchat is where all the cool kids are. What has happened to the days of people just using their space to write? I am definitely guilty of the peer pressure effect of this. Need to grow my numbers, pretty lighting kits for pinnable pictures etc etc but sometimes I just miss a good old fashioned what’s happening in life post. So here you go. I’m sure I’ve lost 90% of you by now with all this writing and no flashy pictures but here’s what is going on with me right now.
Settling into married life and definitely feeling a little bit of pressure for that next step. I was never a big I have to have kids kind of person. I come from a large family (youngest of 6), I work in Pediatrics and see very sick kids on a daily basis. Until I met Mark I was always okay with the possibility of having or not having them. However, after seeing how incredible he was with my sisters kids and basically all of his friends kids, I couldn’t imagine not having kids with him. I can’t wait to watch him become a father. So, it is in the cards. Just not at this exact moment. Mark and I are enjoying our crazy over scheduled lives and I can’t fathom thinking of adding anything on top of it right now. I know life changes and evolves but right now I am happy and content. What a feeling being content.
For our trip to New Orleans. Is it totally crazy that I am already dreaming of what outfits I’m going to wear and where we are going to eat? Oysters and an extra dirty martini are definitely on the radar. Catching a show somewhere on Frenchman street. Trying all the restaurants that Missy has recommended. Hoping the Gators aren’t embarrassed too badly by the LSU Tigers.
Of a house one day and closet space. Then stressing about where it may be and why the cost of living is so insane in that tiny square mileage of the neighborhood that we want. Getting excited to think about where I may be in 5 years time. Then scaling back and thinking about how good it is to have zero debt and no mortgage. It is a daily seesaw that one.
I have some almost too good to be true news about my full time job that I can’t share until it actually happens. If it does, it will enable me to have more time to devote to here. I’ll share once it goes down.
The many who have reached out and let me know that I have inspired them to blog or asking to help them start. Blogging and bloggers are definitely a rare breed and much love to all of those who support us and don’t question when we talk about our friends that we’ve never actually “met” but text with on a daily basis.
Continued health of my family, friends and those around me. Seriously you can have all the money in the world but if you don’t have your health, it doesn’t really matter right?
Thank you for hanging in there while I get the swirling thoughts of my brain out. Yes I do see that blogging has changed and evolved. Instagram and other instant satisfaction forms of social media are crucial parts. However, I still think there is room to use this space as an outlet for freedom of speech, to catch up on life, share great shopping tips and to form connections with people who live halfway around the country. I am by nature a constant perfectionist and always striving to get to that next mountain top but for once, it is nice to sit back and be happy with the perfection of health, safety, family and security.
As my mother always says, “enjoy the highs because the lows can be very low“. So I am enjoying the sheer happiness of being happy and content at this exact moment in my life and excited to think about all the possibilities that the future will have in store for me. Thank you for being here to ride the wave with me. xoxoxo
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